The breakdown

"I was moments away from leaving the whole thing.
I just coudn't do it anymore.

[...] and I wasn't even sure if I was a Christian anymore.
I didn't even know if I wanted to be a Christian anymore.

[...]

I was exhausted.
I was burned out.
I was full of doubt.
I was done.
I had nothing more to say.

[...]

And it was at that moment that I made some decisions.
Because without pain we don't change, do we?

[...] I realized that day that things were wrong with the whole way I was living my life.
And if I didn't change, I was not going to make it.

It was in that abyss that I broke and got help... Because it's only when you hit bottom and are desesperate enough that things starts to get better. This breakdown, of course left me with all sorts of difficults decisions to make [...]. I decided to be honest about my journey, and if people want to come along, great. But I was still going to have to go. And a new journey began, one that was very, very painful.

And very, very freeing.
It was during this period that I learned that I have a soul."

(Trecho de VELVET ELVIS - Rob Bell)

S.O.S.

"My mind is dull and shattered
From these years of buy and sell
My mind has seen the glory
Of this hollow, modern shell
Sex is a grand production
But I'm bored with that as well
Ahh-ahh-ahh
Lord, save me from myself

The electric sun keeps shining
Wrapping daughters in the chrome
This world is where I breathe
Let it never be called home
Well the vultures make the money
It's where my body fell
Ahh-ahh-ahh
Lord, save me from myself

The vultures make the money
But I'm bored with that as well
Ahh-ahh-ahh (x3)
Lord, save me from myself"

(LORD, SAVE ME FROM MYSELF - Jon Foreman)

Kicking and screaming...

Existem momentos em que pensamos não aguentar mais determinada situação. Mas mal percebemos e estamos aí. Aguentando. Sobrevivendo, passando por tudo como se nada estivesse acontecendo, ou incomodando.

E o tempo continua fazendo seu trabalho.

Por dentro você morre, cada dia um pouco e não vê a hora em que vai explodir ou então terminar de morrer a última parte. Porém as misericórdias de Deus continuam se renovando todas as manhãs. E este último fôlego de vida não se esvai.

[...]

Ouvi uma pessoa falando sobre o que outra concluíra a respeito dela: "...me disse: uma qualidade sua é que você parece durar mais que os problemas, os problemas começam e terminam e você continua aí. Parece que ileso."

É. Bastante.

Fools and kings

"Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back
With on thousand kisses
Be my lover
And I'll cover you

Open your door
I'll be your tenant
Don't got much baggage
To lay at your feet
But sweet kisses
I've got to spare
I'll be there
And I'll cover you

I think they meant it
When they said
You can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are my love
On life
Be my life

Just slip me on
I'll be your blanket
Wherever whatever
I'll be your coat

You'll be my king
And I'll be your castle

No, you'll be my queen
And I'll be your moat

I think they meant it
When they said
You can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are my love
On life
All my life

I've longed to discover
Something as true as this is

So, with a thousand sweet kisses
If you're cold and you're lonely
I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses
You've got one nickel only
I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses
When you're worn out and tired
I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses
When you're heart has expired
I'll cover you

Oh, lover
I'll cover you
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh, lover
I'll cover you"

(I'LL COVER YOU - Rent)

I don't want to be the hollow man...

"I'm overwhelmed
I'm on repeat
I'm emptied out
I'm incomplete
You trusted me
I want to show you
I don't want to be
The hollow man

Believe in me
Believe in nothing
Corner me
And make me something
I've become
The hollow man, I
I've become
The hollow man I see
I see"

(HOLLOW MAN - R.E.M.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2PbySA3DAg

Simplismo

"Maniqueísmo é uma forma de pensar simplista onde o mundo é dividido entre o Bem e o Mal."

Limites, infinitesimais, integrais e derivadas

Algumas pessoas que trabalham, ou convivem intensamente, com ciências exatas tendem a tratar outras pessoas como se fossem, bem, números. Pelo menos é o que tenho constatado ultimamente.

Será que a comparação é válida?
É possível que o tratamento seja similar entre estes dois grupos?

O números são totalmente previsíveis... é muito difícil que a soma de uma unidade com outra dê um resultado diferente de dois. Mas isso é convenção, não é mesmo? Afinal "um" só vale "um" porquê concordamos com isso. E fechamos a análise num determinado nível, paramos de nos aprofundar no assunto em um determinado ponto de conforto.

E as pessoas? Talvez se unirmos Fulano com Beltrano o resultado seja o esperado. Ou se elevarmos Sicrano a tal potência teremos o que queríamos ao fazer isso.

Temos a mania de convencionar pessoas... Como elas são, agem e reagem. E talvez isso funcione, mas só até o ponto de conforto já citado. Não dá para ir mais fundo. Não cientificamente.