The breakdown

"I was moments away from leaving the whole thing.
I just coudn't do it anymore.

[...] and I wasn't even sure if I was a Christian anymore.
I didn't even know if I wanted to be a Christian anymore.

[...]

I was exhausted.
I was burned out.
I was full of doubt.
I was done.
I had nothing more to say.

[...]

And it was at that moment that I made some decisions.
Because without pain we don't change, do we?

[...] I realized that day that things were wrong with the whole way I was living my life.
And if I didn't change, I was not going to make it.

It was in that abyss that I broke and got help... Because it's only when you hit bottom and are desesperate enough that things starts to get better. This breakdown, of course left me with all sorts of difficults decisions to make [...]. I decided to be honest about my journey, and if people want to come along, great. But I was still going to have to go. And a new journey began, one that was very, very painful.

And very, very freeing.
It was during this period that I learned that I have a soul."

(Trecho de VELVET ELVIS - Rob Bell)